As a writer, sometimes I get mixed up on what’s real life or what’s fictional. I’ll clarify that statement by adding that I understand full well that I’m living in real life, or as the text people say irl, but sometimes I think my life is going to play out like something out of a fictional novel or movie.
In retrospect, sometimes I expect situations in my life to play out like a movie.
They absolutely did not play out like a movie. None of them.
As the main character in my life, because each of us are the main characters of our lives, I expect a happy ending. Is that too much to expect? My generation has grown up watching Disney movies where happy endings are handed out like candy during Halloween.
If fiction is the truth within the lie, then surely some elements of real life are existent within that fictional work. Is it too much to hope for that happy ending to be one of those truthful bits?
In the fictional story, the protagonist faces overwhelming obstacles that increase in their difficulty as he/she gets closer to their goal. If fiction truly is the truth within the lie, does that mean that I, as the main character in my life, has to face overwhelming obstacles?
Of course, that is all dependent on the assumption that real life parallels the fiction that we read and write.
The other thing that I have to realize is that each person in my life is a main character too and that they have their own overwhelming obstacles to overcome.
These obstacles range from physical obstacles to mental obstacles, things that plague our emotions. Barriers that prevent us from accepting, apologizing, and forgiving others for their actions. It’s easier to apologize, but harder to forgive.
Give us this day, our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those that trespass upon us.
In order to achieve my happy ending, I have to know my goal. Once I know my goal, the overwhelming obstacles that are presented to me won’t be that hard to face.
I’ve figured out that goal, I’ve figured out what I have to achieve and it’s been staring in my face for a very long time.
God is the goal. My relationship with Him is what I’ve got to maintain if I’m going to get my happy ending. The way I face those obstacles is all that matters.
Recently, I’ve faced one of those overwhelming obstacles as some of you might know. I’m still facing it. I won’t go into much detail here because I’ve always been a rather private individual. Starting out, I handled it extremely badly. Every mistake you could possibly make, I made it. Lies, deceit, I even read a newer James Patterson novel.
As some of you may know, I also use humor as a defense mechanism. I’m working on that too.
I’ve also damaged the relationship I had with a few individuals. I’ve made apologies, but like I said earlier. It’s easier to apologize. It’s harder to forgive. Plus when you tell people lies, it’s hard for those people to piece out the truth within the fiction.
So in closing, because this is getting close to 600 words and that’s a bit long for this type of post, I want to apologize once more to those that I hurt, those that I’ve lied to, and to those that might read this and not know that I’ve trespassed against you.
I am sorry, please forgive me of my sins.
I would like you all to know that I’m trying to be better. Being a better person is one of those overwhelming obstacles that we all face. It’s tough, but then again what isn’t these days.
For those that read this and don’t understand what I’m talking about, please pray that I face these obstacles in my life with the grace of God and that I follow the path He has set for me.
If you look at the Book of Revelations, there’s one heck of a happy ending waiting for us.
Happily Fourth of July everyone and remember not to point fireworks at yourselves or others.